Art projects in my head

How can one have so many art projects in the mind and no big interest in creating on a surface, I guess family issues can get in the way, Jodi's Dad having surgery, she is not doing well with this, her grandpa had surgery yesterday, My uncle Ray was told 2-5 months with his cancer, my girlfriends sister died of cance, my other friend was just told she has vaginal cancer, Roland seems to be coming down with a virus, and more.............